I can't believe he left a week ago...time seemed to go by at a pace I'm unsure of. It wasn't exactly fast nor slow. At some moments, I could hardly catch my breath, but at other moments, I could hardly move. Time hung around me like it had nothing better to do.
It's amazing how when you have this time...that follows you...you learn a lot. I have learned again who I can rely on, and who I can't. Those that I can rely on come as no surprise, but those that I can't, I find this revelation to be shocking.
As I sit back and re-evaluate my relationships, I am forced to make hard decisions. I don't like this. This is what time allows. Time lets you see things that you don't always want to see. Sometimes the ignorance is okay and truly blissful. But sometimes, a person has to face realities and know that things in life must change.
So, as I pack together boxes for Jeremy, clean my house, do my schoolwork, I get the luxery that most don't have...I get the time to learn life's lessons again.
